I have seen the mountain-- and it's ME

Just took off to the local department store to check out clothes. I am NOT a shopper, and I suspected before leaving that the store's prices (and possibly clothes) would be a turn-off, but I've recently come to realize that just taking action is sometimes preferable to sitting and waiting for the proper opportunity. So-- off to look at clothes, at least, to start the process of rebuilding a wardrobe to the point where I might be able to look decent-ish on a regular basis.

So, yeah, I'm back, with no new clothes. Liked their sweaters but otherwise their fat-lady clothes leave a lot to be desired. But I'm glad I actually DID something. (My major problem with fat-lady clothes is that they make me look fat...Whoops. Re-realized for the umpteenth time that BEING fat sometimes correlates with looking fat. And being a lady kinda correlates with looking like a lady. Fat-lady. Oh well.)

So I mostly avoid studying myself, full-body, at great length. I look at my face in the mirror everyday--mostly my eyes-- but I kinda ignore the total-body, full-effect reflection.

I looked at it today. My reflection, I mean. Whooee. I have a lot of work to do! I am officially, as of today, a work in progress. I HAVE to be, 'cause that lady in the mirror just can't be the me of forever and always. That has to be me in a moment in time, soon to be eclipsed by a better-- at least more toned, better rested, hopefully a few pounds lighter, me.

I need to stay encouraged so I can keep moving. From now on, I'm going to do my best to note my progress, however small, in the me-overhaul dept. Today, I got a realistic visual fix on the problem. It's me, and I'm dumpier than ever and look like I got run over by a truck (that's the lack of sleep showing-- think I was up until 2:30am last night?) I have seen the mountain and it IS me.

So. Bravo to me for getting moving on slowly resurrecting myself in the self-presentation dept. Bravo to me for seeing myself somewhat realistically and for remembering that this is just a moment in time and for committing, somewhere in my head to moving forward. It's always good to be moving forward if you find you don't like where you are standing.

Onward, upward, Lisa!!